wander3r's memories

U

2011-05-22T08:19:00.000-07:00

do u know u drive me crazy in a way others can't. it makes me go nuts thinking bout it.u make me can't get over u no matter how hard i try.

whenever i wan to give up. trying to stop contacting u. u'll send me a msg.confusing me once again.dissolving all the resolve i have to give up on u. u're the one person i can nvr figure out. u're like a sun covered by so much fog then i can't ever uncover.

when i ask for a sign that time.u gave it to me.or was it something u didn't intended to.

i nd a light out of this darkness.but are u the light that i need????

aftermath

2010-10-03T04:16:00.000-07:00

i ain't gonna apologise.even though what i told u might have really shock you. but i really just wanted to come clean to you even when i knew i didn't stand a chance at all. i dun regret what i did.just so u know i'm pretty stubborn. u wun hear that anytime soon.but in the near future i might or might not do that again.so be prepared alright. but for now lets be like before.before i told u those things. i know its gonna be hard for u to trust me with ur things after all that.but know that i'm still the same as before. my care and concerns are genuine.
i'll cya soon..C=

NS!!!

2010-09-18T06:41:00.000-07:00

now officially a 3 week old recruit.. the past 3 weeks have been fun. though the week that just passed was filled with quite a bit of knock it down thanks to some idiots.namely from P1. aside from that.these 3 weeks went by pretty quickly. now every weekday all we can think about is book out book out. and hearing some coys singing bout their POP is zzz. another 16 weeks more before my POP. haizz. but oh well thanks to someone outside, life becomes a lot easier..on the bright side. so far lost close to 6kg. almost 2kg/week.

zz.. dunno what to blog.sianzz. oh well shall just end here.
to all thats sick take care. to G23 fight on!!

2010-07-15T22:06:00.001-07:00

i guess it got through to her.prolly the reason i'm getting the cold shoulder.zzz

2010-07-12T07:31:00.000-07:00

for a moment i thought she got the hint.then she goes and make me think otherwise.zz.what am i to doooo.

El que usted es audiencia es alrededor realmente usted

2010-07-09T12:11:00.000-07:00

are u really oblivious to everything or are u just pretending that u dun know.
i've been so obvious to the point that i'm just one step short of telling u face to face.
i dunno how all it started, but all i know is that u were the one who chased the past away for me. u became my present. yet now because of u the future is so uncertain.
what did u meant when u said 'u got me can alr la'??
confuseddddd.......

2010-06-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

SAD

2010-06-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

tiring week comes to an end....

face comp whole day at work for the past week.eye is like super tired.zz..

despite that the week has been pretty funnnn.

wed met part of 21 for karate kid. despite only meeting for movie only.still it wasn't bad.all credits to the movie haha..

thurs was a relatively shortt dayyy.lol. suppose to surprise celebration for a colleague but end up the colleague almost couldn't go to the lunch venue.-.-... unbelievable laaaa.ended up surprise failureee. but oh well we did manage to catch everyone's attention at BK lol lol. next week got another surprise celebration sure hope it goes well ha. next week last week of work liaoooo.dunno to be sad or happy laaaa.zzz.just when i decided to stop work, i started to get to know everyone better. super wrong timing de can.sian diaoooo.haiz mei ban fa. at least next fri it'll be a blast i hope ha.

aside from all that this week has been shitty..waiting really is a dread.zzz

looking forward to HK trip in aug.which reminds me i nd to go collect my new passport zz.
suddenly feel like going ipoh visit kai ma.shall talk to dad about it see how.
dad going club med tml.i so wanna go.i miss the open bar there.arghhhh...

thinking too much bout NX lately.haizzzzz
dunno what else to blog liao.zz.

signing off....

Chill-out session

2010-05-29T12:31:00.000-07:00

just got home from a real awesome chillout session with yewtai zuoyang lydia jonathan xavier and jason.

had a great night haha.thanks guys. lets go again soon.haha.
have a good night of slp guys.ciaoo...C=

updated at 3.34am, 30/5/2010

and i'm still sober.wahahahaaaaa. =X

K-ing with class

2010-05-28T08:35:00.000-07:00

today's the first day of the long weekend.the day i was super looking forward to since the start of the week.meet-up with class peeps to return robe and K session.woootsssss.

but hor when i woke up in the morning.i became totally sian... issac fell sick then couldn't go.8 became 7. but well 7 was still ok still..

suppose to meet the guys at 10 at potong pasir mrt to return robe. but we only left potong pasir mrt at like 11. the reason behind it will not be revealed.hahaha. while waiting for the guys to arrive. i got sms from lydia saying karen not coming also. my mood totally plummet can..sighhh. but well the day had to go on still..

the guys arrived then we went returned robe. got the refund.50 dollar. but by the end of the day.my wallet has zero dollar left.zzzz.oh well.

headed down to bugis met up with lydia.then we bought mac breakfast so *smuggle* into the place. went to topone KTV. made the VIP card.after that we started on 6 hour ++ of K-ing hahaha.chao high de can despite only 5 of us at the beginning: lydia jason bryan jonathan me. then at 2 lilian came also. and all the HIGHness was initiated by the usual culprit: lydia lee.=X. the cymbals that came with the room got her high even quicker laaaa.hahaha.

oh and hor sorry for having such sharp eyes ahhh.=P

after the long K session we headed to marina square for dinner.bryan didn't come cause had to go back malaysia.zz. so the remaining 5 of us went for dinner at carl's junior. it was jason's V meal at carl's junior.hahaha.

most of us were full after the meal.cept for 1 person(hint: the high person =X).

so naturally after a nice meal a good dessert compliments it nicely ha. dessert at chinatown. people park centre ha. we reach when the place was about to close.but the aunties there were nice enough to let us eat. thanks a lot C=. sesame paste and yam paste+ ice cream.

to sum it up. a super NICE day hahaha.wooootsss.

pics from today coming up:

Credit to lydia for uploading. but well only she can upload since she only wan who brough cam haha.

ps. those that couldn't go today.lets go next time alright.lets have more ppl next time. =D

long bus rides really gets me thinking a lot.sometimes thinking too much too.zzz

moodless...

2010-05-19T08:41:00.000-07:00

wanted to blog bout graduation.but suddenly no mood.shits.can't focus at all.frustration building up.wth is wrong with me.darnnnnnnn...

sushi buffet tml!!!!

2010-05-01T07:16:00.000-07:00

SIANNNN. only work 2 days this week and i'm super tireddddd. STUPID dust.rawrr.get away from my nose and eye.....
haizzz

only thing i'm looking forward to this week is the sushi buffet on sun(supposingly sat)..
having postponed this for 3 weeks already.finally we're going laaaa..
though only 4 ppl.its better than nothing. maybe will plus another 4.but no reply from them yett..zz

though i got to say its a huge coincidence. suppose to go today but cause jason going another buffet today liao so postpone to tml. then so happen xiping cherie shermin and jeehui going to cine tml also. if i didn't see the event hor.then tml both our groups sure surprise to see each other there de laaa.hahaha

haiz.dunno why got urge to go expo now and then going BK.hahaha. i wanna see CYX againnn..
shall find time go one day.sure hope CYX still working there thoughhh.one look and i couldn't look away le laa.nan de yi jian lor..hope you yuan zai jian =D

hmmm.time is passing so slowly today..time pass fasterr pleaseee.so looking forward to tml.
warning: if last minute ps me again.i'll kill that personnnnnn......

sians nxt week timbre no one from my class wan go.then one person go so sian then i not going le.super sian can...zzz

Coincidence or fate??? i wonderrrr...

WORK!!

2010-04-23T09:23:00.001-07:00

been a tiring week.
GOOD NEWS: i'm employed.wootss.
BAD NEWS: i'm worn out everyday and the dust is making my nose really itchy.zzz
oh well can't say its that bad.
though looking at the mountains of invoices, i'll change my mind again
but well the company ain't that bad.at least the accounts department isn't
everyone is pretty friendly when they aren't immersed in their work that is
thankfully sotong also working there, else it'll be uber sian.
and its also thanks to her that i got the job de.

it started when she randomly call me when i'm sianning at home on tues afternoon
ring! ring!...
sotong: "sotong wan go work as admin ma?"
me: "at where?"
sotong: " near expo there de. wan?"
me: " i dun mind"
sotong: " ok, now can go interview ma?"

above is the reenactment of what happen that day. however, the conver wasn't totally the same.
its similar though.=P

following that went down to interview. oh well can't really say its an interview.
we just went there filled in the application form, got briefed bout the workplace and poof we got the job. wow right. sounds so easy that it seems fake right?. its the 100% truth though. even i didn't believe it at first laaa

anyway, 3 days went past in a flash. when u're working, times just seem to fly really fast.
upside: kill time and earn money and the same time
downside: no time for dramas.zzz

that aside. this is weekend is one to look forward to.C=
Formula Drift Singapore
3rd year in a row. once again free tix this year.woots.
sure hope there is no rain this year. i dun wanna see skidding.i wanna see drifting laa

Tengku Djan in his new Team FX Formula Bridgestone 180SX. no more of this trademark hachiroku. so how would he fare against ryuji miki's RX-7. all would be unveiled this weekend.=D

Final Four prediction: Ryuji Miki, Tengku Djan, Ariff Johanis and Tan Tat Wei.

Can't wait for tml.ooops its later haaaa

more updates after tml..

stay tuneddd..

C=

BIRTHDAY!!

2010-04-18T09:08:00.000-07:00

its 12.08am 19th april 2010 gmt+8

20yr + 8 mins old now ha.

thanks to everyone for the wishes. including those i nvr thought would come.thanx everyone =D

day started out really early.i woke up at 5am for no reason at all -.-
then back to slp woke up at 8 then got ready go job. left home at 8+.
then along pie towards tuas, dad's car started making funny noises -.-
turns out a piece of rubber near the tyres was loose.
pop by a workshop, got the thing fixed and off we go again towards jb.
light breakfast followed by a bit of shopping at plaza sentosa
LUNCH at tze char/seafood restaurant. shark's fin pork ribs hor fun yan su chicken fried silver fish yum yum yum ha

dinner with sotong =D. thanx for pei-ing me.C=
dine at astons at suntec. then headed to marina to see if can catch movie.but end up nothing. headed to esplanade at the waterfront for the live music.then walk walk to fullerton.cut through to boat quay. which was darn quiet.-.-. oh well.

thanks sotong for the company.=D

best bday in like 3 years,thank you.=D

i wish to totally let go of my feelings for you.please make it come true

2010-04-17T09:04:00.000-07:00

feliz cumpleaños a mí

2010-04-15T09:08:00.000-07:00

DRAMA ADDICTION

drama is like ruling a large part of my life for this couple of days.
US, Korean, Taiwan. totally addicted to it.

anyway new drama to recommend..

Cinderella's Sister ( Must Watch!!)

Title: 신데렐라 언니 / Cinderella Unni
Also known as: Cinderella's Stepsister / A Modern Story of Revenge
Genre: Romance, melodrama
Episodes: 20
Broadcast network: KBS2
Broadcast period: 2010-Mar-31 to TBA
Air time: Wednesday & Thursday 21:55

Starring: Moon Geun Young, Seo Woo, Chun Jung Myung and Taecyeon.

Moon Geun Young

Seo Woo

Synopsis

A modern day adaptation of Cinderella with a twist as our Cinderella, Goo Hyo Sun, is loved by everyone whereas her stepsister, Eun Jo, has a dark past and struggles with the fact that her mother starts to care more for Hyo Sun than her.

Seo Woo plays Goo Hyo Sun. first look such a pretty adorable. but slowly she starts to get on ur nerve. its only 5 episode into the series, perhaps its still too early to judge. Korean addicts out there, this is a must watch.

Rating 4.5/5.0

2010-04-12T09:58:00.000-07:00

a tree is outgoing??

to laugh or to stare in disbelief..

2010-04-12T09:01:00.000-07:00

is making a reply that freaking hard...
not like it'll shorten ur life or anything right..
the hell....

flustered

2010-04-11T07:18:00.001-07:00

i feel so weak whenever it comes to you.
when will i be no longer affected by you.
i can't even keep a promise to myself, why can't i just forget everything.
i don't wish to be tortured by this any longer.
why say something and then deleted it straight away.is it really that hard just replying to me at times.

i'm all flustered cause of you....

DBT21

2010-04-09T10:47:00.000-07:00

been eonss since i last updatedddd. shall have a rareee update since this has been a fruitful weekkk

WED. steamboat with class peeps: lydia karen issac bryan and jason. despite only 6 of us going. it was still hella fun. from pork balls to shabubu to deepfried mantou, it couldn't have gotten any better?. normally no. btu with them anything is possible. as the meal came to a close. ZOO was brought up. thoughts thoughts and more thoughts. decision: lets go tml!!. not joking not a prank cause we really went the next day

THURS. up at 6 to go zoo. breakfast at wang cafe before bussing to the zoo. 10 years nvr go zoo. and know what it didn't change one bit.-.-
from monkeys to monkeys to monkeys. seriously a lot of monkeys..
swimming polar bears and white tiger, patrolling leopards and cheetahs. sleeping lions. well it nvr changes. still what made the day was the people. the 6 that went for steamboat + loli.
3 shows we went.one was the highlight. with Mr B becoming a topless warrior.what a sight to behold. =P.

honestly time past quickly when u're having fun.in a blink of the eye the day came to an end. lost were the time.gain were the memories that will last till the end of time. lets all make more memories before we part shall we??. ps. rest of u pls turn try to go for the next outing if there is one hor.

till next time.ciaoooooooo..

je vous aime toujours

2009-09-17T09:52:00.000-07:00

why is it we can be ok one day.then the next day things turn out like that.is there anything wrong with being concerned for a fren.even though i may like you.i've nvr expect anything from the start.i wan u to know that.believe me would u.please...

2009-09-16T04:03:00.000-07:00

i just wanna be there for u to confide in.nothing more than that.even though i do like u.i'm not expecting anything at all.dun u understand at all...

2009-09-16T03:10:00.000-07:00

theres no wrong in liking someone. its not like i'm harboring any hopes at all...

deeper and deeper

2009-09-12T22:21:00.000-07:00

真的越来越深了，该怎么办？
该说还是不该说？

2009-08-23T09:33:00.000-07:00

dunno what u're thinking at all la.contradicting.hard to understand.oh well....

revive

2009-08-11T07:02:00.000-07:00

revived!!

for some reason,i suddenly have the urge to blog after almost half a year. each time i revived my blog, it would be at a time of real downs for some reason. it ain't an exception this time round.

things always come to a point when i want to let go yet i'm too deep to do so. i dunno how i'll be able to climb out of it this time round though.its really frustrating. i'm being a dumbass, encouraging at one moment the next i'm regreting doing so. the feelings sucks. but i can only blame myself for all these.

おせっかい焼き私を得たであることはこの混乱に。there are so many things that u say that i dun wish to hear.yet i'm unable to tell u so as telling u will let u know how i truly feel.

last weekend was tough to go through.friday was shit.the long weekend became the same. as things starts to change, i'm unable to stop it. no matter what i say, no matter what i do, i'm just a nobody to you. i'm not sure if i can still continue to be there, i dunno what to do. but i all long to see is you being happy even if there isn't me.
a being of no significance what so ever in ur life, yet an existence u can destroy with just one word.

what am i to do?

end of st

2009-02-26T18:04:00.000-08:00

today is the last day for st and my last paper.app mic.after paper is driving then maybe pub/club tonight.finally its the end lol.ha. shall update tonight if i'm home early lol.ciao.happy hols to all that have finish their st already.ha

2009-02-17T09:51:00.001-08:00

date: 18/02/09
time:1.52 am
location:mug@moberly
mood:sianz

had first paper just now.judging from it should be can pass plsc.after paper went sumo house with the guys.the 22 clique also went.they got in after last order la.wa lao. make it seem like we chiong there for nothing la.diao de.after dinner came to moberly.which is like now.someone suddenly came to moberly.make feel like totally invisible la.should i say thanks to u.am i really that loathsome that a hi or hello can't be used.this has been going on for months.i dunno what to do.no clue at all.cause when i try to talk to u.i dun get any replies.u continue to pretend i'm invisible.what sense is there to all these really.if u loathe me or hate me or anything.just say it in my face la.at least i'll feel better.u can tell others that u're unhappy with me.yet u can't say it to me in my face.this is dumb.this is shit really.

2009-01-13T08:17:00.000-08:00

it is only a wed and my week is already fucked up. mon i lost my pen.somemore is the one i write most smoothly with.wtf.today or rather yesterday already i broke my ear piece.fucked.and its still quite new la.knn.then today soccer.play 2 lost 2.played one game conceded 2 goals.fuck.real sian.

and that real stupid stuff.also fuck.what the hell is wrong with my life la.shit.

bright side. itp confirmed at biopolis. at a bioimaging firm.lol.lucky break finally can.but rest of the week is still fucked up.hope wed aka today will be better.

come to think of it this revival post is pretty bad with all those fuck.but really no choice.initially i had posted one during biostats.but considering it was a foolish post i deleted it. funny how i only just posted and u replied me on the same day.coincidence?.or maybe u saw it?.

u know if u really loathe me that much can just say it in my face.so i wun have to guess so much.if we still can be friends and talk like we used to, could u consider forgiving me and talk to me.i dunno if u'll read this or not.even if u do i wun know.everything was my fault to begin with.i wan to make up for it but i really do not know how.tell u the truth it really isn't easy for me at all.i really dun wan to be hated by u.really dun wan.but if i'm really that loathsome i guess i dun have a choice at all anymore. 重要な友人である

ptn outing/2 movies/pub

2008-12-10T16:15:00.000-08:00

ytd had ptn outing.we ate at Pariss at taka.our pt didn't join us.but used to it liao since last sem one also like that.heck.as per after class outing split into cliques.oh boy did i see that coming.as for this is since yr 1 like that liao.heck.lol

after the lunch.walked over to cineleisure with part of the class then we watched 4 christmases.extremely funny movie la.worth watching despite some ppl saying its underrated.after the movie it was still too early for pub.so went to walk around.headed for plaza sing. went arcarde.yew tai actually wanted to play drums but cause the crowds too imbar.so we ended up just watching.after that headed to meridien shopping centre to the shop magic hall.damn cool place la.the cards collection there got me drooling.i ended up getting 2 decks.a regular blue cover bicycle.and the black ghost.20++.but really worth it la.anyone interested in going just ask me for the details.ha

next was the cathay.watch quarantine there.the film style was similar to that of cloverfield.for those who are intending to watch it.kindly bring along a plastic bag in case u get too dizzy and puke.lol. the movie isn't worth the time though.u'll be better off watching 4 christmases.take my word for that.lol

movie end.walk over to prinsep street.had a light dinner.then headed to Liquid Gold.one of the pubs around that area.oh btw.at that point of time only left me yewtai and xavier.but better than nothing.lol. we started out light to begin the night. i ordered tequila sunrise for starters.it was pretty good.i would recommend it.next was half dozen of the house shot.each of us took 2 shots.to be honest it was quite light. my next drink also my last drink was the lamborghini.flame drink.before drinking i was totally fine.after that drink.then high liao lol.first timers shouldn't try.sure get drunk one.lol. the place in overall was good.can sing.then got ppl come in to sell things.got chiobu oooo.and they sorta sang for us.had a great night.the waitress there is hot from tp sia.tp ppl go find her.lol. the night ended at around 1.got home and i was totally slumped.change into slp clothes then flop onto bed liao.i'm amazed i'm up so early today la.real weird.but it was pretty fun overall.haha

btw.i dyed my hair copper red.can't tell under shade.can see properly only under bright light.sianz de lor.nvm.next time i'll dye a different color.ha

i'll end it off here.will prob go back to slp liao. ciao

quoted from jason: our class is totally screwed up

end of mst.hols!!

2008-12-05T06:49:00.001-08:00

mst is finally over.three week break starts now.shall not discuss bout mst cause really no point.going KL tml.coming back on tuesday morning.then nd go for osrm lesson. zzz

ptn gathering postpone to wed.meaning i brought forward my return for just osrm.super sian la.and i quarreled with my dad cause of it.super not worth.sianz.

today after app mic.had breakfast at mac.then dota in lib.3 games.so long since i last played.and i still suck at it like before.zzz.getting hook again liao.jia lat.but playing with ai too bored liao.must play online.will chiong when i get back.

before we started playing.notice a person in lib.after we finish playing and left.which is like 3 hours later.the person still there.is she waiting for someone?.if yes,who is that person?.these two question is in my mind even now.cold war since last sem.till now its still the same.normally i would have gotten over it.but seeing that person in class everytime just doesn't help at all la.sigh.headache even after mst over.sigh.what to do what to do.not gonna think so much for now.shall enjoy my hols first.off to pack now.see you guys in 4 days ha.

Gone like the the wind

2008-10-30T05:26:00.000-07:00

i really feel like losing all my memories.at least without any memories, i wun feel all this sadness and sorrow.i keep thinking that maybe if i lost my memories, everything could start all over again and you wun be this cold to me now.if only i had a way.

such a long time has passed.so long that i dunno why we're still like this.i keep asking myself this question.no answer came to me.feel lost.carrying on is hard.i dunno what to do.what to say.sighhhhhh

思念是一种病 lyrics

2008-10-28T05:12:00.000-07:00

思念是一种病 - 张震岳

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头

一辈子有多少的来不及发现已经失去
最重要的东西恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后才肯相信错的是自己他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里还是会想起
难忘的事情我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

oh~ 思念是一种病
oh~ 思念是一种病一种病

汲汲营营忘记身边的人需要
爱和关心借口总是拉远了距离不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了什么蠢事情也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离变成回忆

多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人当这个世界不再那么美好
只有爱可以让他更好我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及

2008-10-27T06:59:00.000-07:00

虽然你就在我眼前，我却有那种思念的感觉，或许是思念过去吧。事情发生这么久了，为何一切还是这样。

2008-10-05T18:03:00.001-07:00

off to camp.back on thurs.ciao

All that i need lyrics

2008-10-04T07:17:00.000-07:00

"All That I Need"

I was lost and alone
Trying to grow, making my way down that long winding road
Had no reason, no rhyme
Like a song out of time
And there you were, standing in front of my eyes
How could I be such a fool
To let go of love and break all the rules
Girl when you walked out that door
left a hole in my heart
And now I know for sure

[Chorus]
You're the air that I breathe
Girl you're all that I need
And I wanna thank you, lady
You're the words that I read
You're the light that I see
And your love is all that I need

I was searching in vain
Playing a game
Had no-one else but myself left to blame
You came into my world
No diamonds or pearls
Could ever replace what you gave to me girl
Just like a castle of sand
Girl, I almost let love slip right out of my hands
And just like a flower needs rain
I will stand by your side through the joy and the pain

[CHORUS X 2]

You're all that I need, girl
You're the air that I breathe, yeah
And I want to thank you
(and I want to thank you, lady)

You're the words that I read, girl
You're love is all I need, yeah
And I want to thank you
(and I want to thank you, lady)

You're all that I need, girl
You're the air that I breathe, yeah
And I want to thank you..
[to fade]

2008-10-04T07:06:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i last updated.so i shall revive this blog a little.

just came back from dinner with family.had dinner at sakura international buffet. the shaw plaza branch.the food there was good.as usual the highlight was the dessert.oreo cheescake marble cheese cake chocolate truffle and ice rum and raisins. so long since i last had it.feel so full now still.ha.

just changed my blog song again.the new song is All that I Need by Boyzone.its a real old song but still so nice to listen to.i downloaded one of boyzone's album: By request.think i'll be hook on the songs for a while ha.lol

one week left till holidays.time to choose gems.dunno what to choose this time.nd do a science and technology one.troublesome.sianz. next week helping out at ICE camp from mon till thurs.meaning 3 days to other stuffs.think it'll be fun esp scaring ppl wahaha.those going beware lol.

gonna go watch Return of the condor heroes liao.ciao lol

2008-09-29T04:08:00.001-07:00

been rewatching code geass r2 25 again and over again.can't seem to stop myself from watching.just like others who've watched this episode.my tears began to flow on their own.the ending is so sad yet so touching.today i think i've already watch it at least 7 times already la.nothing to say about myself.the episode has make me want to change my blog song.check back soon for the new song. i shall say it once again.great ending for a great anime.

next week gundam 00 season 2 will start showing.can't wait.for this week i'll nd to get over ep 25 first.

2008-09-28T22:05:00.000-07:00

Code Geass last episode of season 2.final season.ending was touching and sad.lelouch died.was anticipating a season 3.however with this ending.it couldn't be better.the ending makes one wonder if there really a person who would end his own life for the world's sake just like lelouch.sounds pretty impossible.however if someone like that exist, this world will truly become a much better place.well we should not put our hopes too high up, knowing the current world with people as they are, thats something we won't see anytime soon

hot shot episode 10.jie er was revealed to be qiu kui.sacrificing so much just to be with someone as an equal and yet not allowing the person know who you really are.its really difficult.it takes a real strong person in order to accomplish this feat.normally when people sacrifice so much for the ones they love, they will want them to know. for her she keeps it to herself, even if it meant being sad herself.i really wonder when something like that happens to me.will i be able to do it?.will i be able to take all the pain into myself and allow the person i love to be happy?.i envision myself being able to do this.but i really dunno how much i'm able to take.well, it'll be awhile before something like that occurs to me.i'll find out when it comes.ha.

2 weeks more till school reopens.no job now.sucks.hard to find sucks.rejected sucks.zzz.guess i wun be working at all.die.maybe i'll be able to find one after school starts then work part time when school begins.then maybe can save up a little go oitp.see how ba.sighss.when schools start i wonder how everything will be.when the first sem ended somethings still hasn't ended.how will it be like when school starts.i really wonder.really hope everything will be ok.sigh

The distinction between past, present, and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion

2008-09-15T03:41:00.000-07:00

looks like i've been abandoning my blog again.so came here change song and short update.

two weeks into the holiday.results coming out in two days.haven't manage to find job yet.feel like slacking away.manga is running out.detective conan and bleach latest chapter still not out yet.zz.lucky still got mlb the show 08.

ytd i became wai mai delivery man.deliver cheese fries and bubbletea for sotong.lol.dun emo le hor sotong ha.

shall end here.enjoy the new song: Hey Oh Tonight by Norwegian recycling

ciao

2008-08-26T07:56:00.000-07:00

看到你这样，真得很想陪你说话，让你知道能有依靠。但事因为所发生的一切，使这些无法变成事实。也或许是我想得太多了，或许你根本不需别人的帮助。真的不知道该怎么办

2008-08-26T06:34:00.000-07:00

blogging from moberly

today is the end of exams.end of sem.end of ties?.the exams are not worth mentioning at all. not in the mood to talk about them either

currently at moberly xavier still dunno where.incontactable.duty for the night.as expected there isn't much people here.but can't confirm whether it'll remain the same for the rest of the night.

today after mol bio paper.was suppose to go have lunch with the guys but end up waiting for some of them to finish some stuffs.turn out we waited for nothing cause they had no intention of going from the very beginning.damn waste time. after everyone is finally free we went over to cineleisure for lunch at suki sushi. lunch caused me to be bloated. not from sushi tempura or sashimi was from the ice cream puff.ate near 20 ice cream puff just now.we were playing cards.then after each round we ate one plate.then kept playing kept eating till we bloated lol.

today already spent 20+.then fri going chocolate buffet.extra expenditure.gonna be broke for the week liao.will start looking for work this few days.hope faster start work.faster pay day.less broke.ole.lol.

with the end of exams mark the silence that has go on for 2months?.i practically lost count already.it doesn't matter already.but still i can't believe how it actually became like that.can't do anything about it now.a step at a time.will find out how it'll all turn out when next sem starts.

the chances of it going wrong was low.but it still went wrong.really nothing to say.doosh

BINSAN sumo house coco jiang

2008-08-19T09:01:00.000-07:00

today first paper of semester exams. BINSAN. the paper started at 6 till 8 plus la.real late.paper was doable.should be able to well.after the paper went clementi with the guys then dinner at sumo's house. food was good.but oily sia.no wonder got free flow green tea.lol

next paper is A&P2 on thurs.nd mug a lot for this paper.can't fail.rawrrs.feel so tired now despite drinking those high glucose drinks.zzz.

currently watching hot shot aka 篮球火. first few episodes was funny.but story is beginning to come into place. and coco jiang aka li ying or W in the show. long legs.ooo chio. and her tan really suits her and did i mention her long legs.oooo.ha

here are two pics of coco jiang.can't see her legs.but this is enough for now.ha.

her tan reminds of someone i know.but that someone dun have her legs.ha.but can still not that bad.wakaka.ha.k guess i'm too bored lol. guess i'll end here today

Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time, in the worst possible way this is too true.sigh

2008-08-11T07:31:00.000-07:00

when you look around properly, you'll be able to notice cute girls you've never notice before. lol i must say thats true.

tomboys may not be what they look like at all, sometimes their feminine side is present too. i realised i've been spending a lot of times looking at girls when i'm outside.lol.take today for example. on my way to school on the train.i spent bout 15 min during a 30 min train ride looking at a few girls.lol. end up kena distracted forgot to study lol.

all of above is crap cause i'm too bored lol. day was bored.two lessons.to be exact is 1 test 1 lesson.then home and out. now home bored. sianz. tml no schoo.wed got gems test.tired.wed prob last time having class with gems group.good thing?.dun really know.nvm for now. wed i shall torture elmo.XD. tml maybe going school study.maybe.but think i'll be too tired. lol . go lib study got chances to please the eye.but pretty low lor.if not is those that can't look at for too long.lol

been practising backpalming the whole day.on the train bus even when watching drama.i wanna master it.but hard la.nd to make my hand nimble for the movements= hard.zzz.nevertheless i shall continue trying.ha.

currently watching Bijo ka Yajuu aka beauty or beast.again.think this is the 5th or 6th time i watching this series.but i still like watching.lol.primary reason cause matsushima nanako is the lead actress.lol.as if. the story is nice.character potrayal is good.ha.recommend everyone to watch.ha

alrite gonna slp.no point being awake.tired.lol.nitez all

2008-08-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

the week went past pretty quickly.and i'm pretty drained from it

wed did mug @ moberly duty.from night till morning 8.30.then thurs afternoon had lbms and envisci test.real tired after that la.i went slp at 9+ lor.

today after binsan got paper.ave pass.then anp2 drE not here.so had two hour free.then ms koh lesson.after lessons went jurong point watch movie.before movie had fish&co. money not enough 2 is nice.its touching.triggered some memoires of mine when i watched it.

tonight outta be slping late.tml must study for mol bio liao.zzz. bored

time wasted like kuku.dumb

2008-08-01T07:48:00.000-07:00

Existence
sometimes when the truth comes to you, you refuse to accept it. but sometimes the truth is so unbearable, you just wish to cast it aside and pretend you don't know about it at all. at times a person wonder whether his existence is a reality or not. but just when he is thinks his existence is proven, he is thrown back down as he realises he doesn't seem to exist at all. while there are the ones that confirm his existence, there are some or sometimes just one person that refuses to acknowledge it. despite having that many to acknowledge he exist, just one person who thinks he doesn't is enough to put him back where he started in the first place. sometimes an existence seems so real, that one thinks it does exist. where in actualy fact, its existence never even began.

Birth and Death
it takes a lifetime to create something, it takes only an instant to kill it. its like trust between people, this trust takes time to build up. however, something that might have just occur for a minute is enough to destroy this trust. thats how life is like too. it leaves one to wonder whether its worth spending time to create that one thing, when in the next moment it could be gone.

Truth at the end of your life?
i've ponder over that for as long as i can remember. most of the time i'll give it all i got to try to create that something. i give myself excuses, reasons to go on. but each time just when i'm about to convince myself this will all work out, something happens and i'm back to square one. its like being so close to heaven, and before reaching it u get thrown back down. sometimes if you are lucky u get to start over again, sometimes it marks the end of everything. however you will never know it till the end. the end could mean the end of your life, part of your life or just the next moment. but most people only realise it when they are at the brink of death. its been said that when a person is about to die, he will be able to see everything in an instant of what is going on everywhere in the world. some say your whole life will appear in front of you in a flash. none of these can be confirm, as the no one has live to tell the tale cause you can't make that person come back to life and tell you what happen. maybe this is what they mean when they say a person gains enlightenment when they pass on.

2008-08-01T07:12:00.000-07:00

today test is not worth mentioning especially A&P2 which is killer paper. after everything went play CS.was suppose to go garden fest but cause got mug @ moberly briefing so can't go.

2008-07-28T07:58:00.000-07:00

two test this week.time to start studying. currently no mood for anything sigh.kns.sianz.kuku.what to do.i dunno.rawrrs.stupid dream,wan to forget then give me that dream.kns.sai.how long will i continue being invisible to u.i really wan this to stop.what can i do to make this end.pls tell me.just dun tell me there is nothing i can do that is the only thing i dun wan to hear

next week doing moberly duty on wed.thurs no test.what a relief.if not i die.ha.bored to death.

希望一切尽快变回跟当时一样.未拿起过，就不能放下。希望能拿起，但永远不想放下。让我忘了，要不就放过我把！郁结憾恨一念泯，恩怨情仇皆如尘

2008-07-27T21:28:00.000-07:00

Now still having lesson and I'm here blogging. Lesson is boring I can barely concentrate.feel so drain now.start of the third week,just when I've decided to stop,I had a dream last night.leaving me totally confuse.sigh.sianz

2008-07-25T08:53:00.000-07:00

i can't barely keep my eyes open yet i still dun wan slp.i'm nuts.

a thought came to me a moment ago. it tells me to not ponder so much over a car when there is a possibility of finding a car even better.maybe thats what i will do.maybe i'll find a car that i like better.got the feeling the car is coming already.ha. as for the current car.i'll just see it as one that has cease production.wun be able to get it anymore ha

today's lesson was bored.binsan i understood everything even though i was listening only with a ear.bored.A&P. was used as a subject of a story by Dr.E. weiqiang got it first.i got it second.but mine was worse.it stirred up the whole class lor.ha.bo bian.if u got india community service trip and u take A&P2 u're bound to become a character in his stories.lol.but it ain't that bad.manage to get my attention.take my mind of things for a moment.make me notice better things.ha.maybe i should control my eyes.shouldn't let it wander so much.might get into trouble someday cause of it ha.

新的开始

2008-07-24T07:50:00.000-07:00

class today was suppose to be at 1.skip mol bio at 1, then went for lmbs at 2.then had one hour break. then binsan. end up going school for 2 hour lesson only.zz.super sian

today like any other day for the past two weeks, conversation was a bare minimum.i really wonder whether am i that loatheful that u can't even cast ur gaze on me for a few more moment.sigh.我真的有这么讨人厌吗？

really is time to put things all behind,really hope i'll be able to do it.

i'm not the only one on earth emoing.mine is definitely not the worst situation.must snap out of this and help those who nd it more. but can i?

相爱不如相知，或许这就是一切问题的答案吧。

new blogskin

2008-07-23T09:34:00.000-07:00

new skin.suddenly had the urge to change.

to bryan. its not cause u ask me change then i change ha.

to psycho. better than the previous skin le rite.ha

《一直很安静》
空荡的街景
想找个人放感情
做这种决定
是寂寞与我为邻

我们的爱情
像你路过的风景
一直在进行
脚步却从来不会为我而停

给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名

你说爱像云
要自在飘浮才美丽
我终於相信
分手的理由有时候很动听

给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名

给你的爱一直很安静
我从一开始就下定决心
以为自己要的是曾经
却发现爱一定要有回音

给你的爱一直很安静
想交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名

给你的爱一直很安静
除了泪在我的脸上任性
原来缘份是用来说明
你突然不爱我这件事情

突然觉得好安静

2008-07-23T05:38:00.000-07:00

一杯愁绪，几段情缘，莫过与君酒当歌。

逍逍自在，敢将功名尽弃。遥遥等待，只叹芳心难求。

the above are quotes/poems taken from chinese paladin aka 仙剑奇侠传。started watching the series again out of boredom.getting hooked again cause of the storyline jia lat.

hooked to the song 一直很安静.its an old song but it is nice.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFQoW381BXI&feature=related
link to the song

shall not think about it for too much anymore.really isn't worth my time

2008-07-22T09:58:00.000-07:00

finally done with gems stuff.zz.tml go school for gems only.sian 1/2. tired. today was a dread. how long will this continue.arghhh. now i truly understand how psycho feels that time.sighhhh.dreaddd rawrrs.

slping.nitez

这到底要持续到什么时候？

2008-07-21T05:29:00.000-07:00

code geass r2 15 spoiler: V.V died. C.C lost her memory.king of britannia is now immortal.new superweapon added to code geass timeline:nuclear weapon aka Freya.

C.C that lost her memory is cute, the way she talk, like so innocent la.

school today is aka zzz. reach class a little late in the morning.felt sick. cna't concentrate. then ended up drawing in class.but cause sick no inspiration draw.zzz.

sianz.exam schedule is out.3 papers. all the last quizes coming soon.nd to mug.zz.dunno whether can concentrate or not. tues wed thurs all start at 12, 12, 1 respectively.finally more slp ha.reason.practical is over.ole.ha.

no proper conversation for almost a week le, how long is this gonna last.i wonder

2008-07-16T04:27:00.001-07:00

today after school went simei there the sony ericsson service center to get the battey cover and replace ear piece.finally my phone is back in one whole complete piece again liao.ole ha.school like always is bored.but getting much worse besides the boredom.nothing can be done for now.sigh

2008-07-14T04:25:00.000-07:00

IT'S TEARING UP MY HEART (N'Sync)
It's tearing up my heart when I'm with you But when we are apart, I feel it too And no matter what I do, I feel the pain with or without you
Baby I don't understand Just why we can't be lovers Things are getting out of hand Trying too much, but baby we can't win
Let it go If you want me girl, let me know I am down on my knees I can't take it anymore
CHORUS Baby don't misunderstand What I'm trying to tell ya In the corner of my mind Baby, it feels like we are running out of time
Let it go If you want me girl, let me know I am down on my knees I can't take it anymore
CHORUS
Tearin' up my heart and soul We're apart I feel it too and no matter what I do, I feel the pain With or without you
Tearin' up my heart and soul We're apart I feel it too and no matter what I do, I feel the pain With or without you
CHORUS
And no matter what I do, I feel the pain With or without you

this above song depicts how i feel right this very moment.sighhhhhhh

2008-07-11T05:52:00.000-07:00

handphone cover has been loose for ages.then today it came out and went missing.all happen in the morning when i was at city hall.only realise cover was gone when i boarded the train.it was too late liao.haiz.tml gonna go simei SE service center.hope can replace.zz

2008-07-10T07:17:00.000-07:00

its week 13 already. exams gonna come soon,quiz are arriving one by one. time to start studying. i wish to do well this time,i wan to. tml school ends at 1, should be nothing on again,meaning wun be having fun.zzz.hope things wun last long this weekend then i can do own things

你所说的话，使我觉得非常温馨。不知道我是佛是在做梦。或许是我想太多了吧。

2008-07-08T08:28:00.000-07:00

Lessons today was draggy, was sleeping during lmbs, cannot tahan at all. tml short day end at 3. shall come home rest after that. just now class blog got war of words, lucky now over liao. guys peace, we should be united class not broken class. 有事好商量

i'm motivated to form a battery with someone, but can't find a team at all.sianz.i wan to stand on the mound and pitch.rawrrs. someone advice me.

tired going slp.early tml zzz.

在你身边时，一切都忘记了，一点烦恼都没有，觉得十分舒服. 无论任何事我都会在你身边陪伴着你的。

2008-07-07T08:15:00.000-07:00

code geass r2 episode 13: Shirley Fentte died. rawrrs. stupid la.

school was boring cause i was so tired.day ended at 4, 2 hours earlier than usual.came back laze around then showered dinner. my mom baked bread, is real nice, got hotdog one, crabstick de, and sweet filling. that was my dinner plus soup satisfied ha. after dinner did met bio just finish, was watching video while doing, then took super long lol. the new 9 o'clock show Beach.Ball.Babes.miss the front part just now.but i will follow it starting tml.ole.lol.gonna slp now.prac tml at 8 zz.

oh note to psycho.i wun emo.not gonna let u shoot me.=P.that way i can tell u not to emo.and try not to emo liao.

2008-07-05T15:37:00.000-07:00

just got home.last night bbq.then mahjong and card games.now tired but can't sleep got things to do zzz.sianz.off to do work now zzz

2008-07-03T08:33:00.000-07:00

today was a real long day.school started at 8.had prac.handed in binsan report.currently free from report of all kinds.wooo. other lessons went ok.A yuen lesson was somehow fun.had a good laugh lol

after lessons went cine watch hancock with 4G guys.movie was average storyline wise.potrayal of hero was unique.first of its kind.will smith potrayed the character john hancock in a way that shows the character's attitude perfectly.his acting was flawless honest.but an improve in the storyline will make the movie even better.

tml after school maybe movie again.this time wanted.however no confirmation yet.now totally beat la but dun feel like sleeping.weird.

2008-06-28T07:41:00.000-07:00

just finish watching 识法代言人.ending is nice but unfortunate the dad died. done with this series.wonder what i should watch next. maybe i should start of zettai kareshi. should be nice.ha

started playing FFIX again.this time on psp.ha.convenient.ole.ha. today is sian like ytd.nvm.tml will be better

不想我身边的人离我而去，无论是谁都好我都不想看到你有事

2008-06-27T09:44:00.000-07:00

being so free now gave me more time to let my thoughts wander. after my thoughts came back. now feel so out down. maybe luck really isn't by my side. thinking too much really sucks. especially with thoughts like that. if only those thoughts never came to me in the first place haiz

mood: sian + emo

2008-06-27T08:40:00.000-07:00

mst is over.not looking forward to my results at all.thus i will not discuss about mst at all.

planning to have dinner after mst with part of the class.but too few people can go.real let down.so had no choice but to come home. this weekend is gonna be real dull.everything got cancelled.no plans this whole weekend = whole weekend at home = sian 1/2.sigh

was designing class Tee after dinner. real hard to find a picture that is compatible with the other designs.sianz. the current designs we got is good.but base is T-shirt. when we're suppose to be having polo T.like wun suit la.sigh. hassle.

~~越陷越深，不知道到底该不该控制我的感觉。真不知道该怎么办，不知道你怎么想，想知道却不敢问.~~ 一点感觉也没有，或许注定永远都只能做朋友。现在没心情做任何事了

end of study week

2008-06-22T07:06:00.000-07:00

today is the last day of study week.MST starts tml.not exactly very prepared but i'll do my best.can't wait for mst to end then less pressure.lucky i can still come online so not that stress.psycho's dad plug away her modem then she can't online.emo.lol.jia lat sia her.but still jia you.then i know someone who is real relax despite mst:veron.till ytd she was till watching drama la.pei fu her lor.but now she chionging also le.plus not feeling well.exam fever.take care hor.after mst then relax liao.play badminton bball soccer anything.backpacking plans for sem hols.hope the ITP dun clash.if not real sianz.

shall go back to studying.two papers tml MET biochem LMBS.zzz.i will work hard.must do well for mst.work hard everyone.survive mst then lets have fun.ha

nanashi signing offff

2008-06-13T09:05:00.001-07:00

bored out.haven't started studying.been reading mangas indulging in animes.die liao.i've resolved to start studying this weekend.i must i will if not i die.ha

suddenly the feelings are coming back again.sigh

class bbq

2008-06-07T21:54:00.000-07:00

class bbq was on fri.first went paya lebar mrt at 1 to guide jonathan zuoyang and weiqiang to parkway.lunch at pastamania then went next door to giant to get the bbq stuffs. after getting all the stuffs veron lilian xavier and jason met us at giant. after taht we cab down to east coast park.we stop a little too early and ended up having to walk a longer way to the pit.

after reaching the pit, we ended up playing big 2 cause we had no lighter to start the fire.after yewtai arrive with the lighter then we start fire. to our surprise zuoyang was pretty good at it.though while fanning he broke the styrofoam box's cover. there is a video of the process. by the time the fire was ready almost everyone had arrived.cooking began.

the food was good.i bbqed the satay perfectly.nicely cooked without burn.i'm pro ha.main attraction was the hotdogs.cheese hotdogs. supply ran out real quickly should have bought more.unfortunate. after that everything began to ran out.drinks charcoal. so our couriers zhuen and yewtai went to purchase drinks and charcoal.compliments to the delivery time.haha

then the games began.torture games more like it.highlights were the forfeits.mostly carried out by zuoyang.most notably the pole dance.another would be zuoyang and jason grinding each other.haha.another thing to note specially highlighted by zhuen and issac is clara's extremely huge appetite ha.non stop eating.everyone witness it lol.ha

after taking class photo everyone help clear up then almost everyone left.only ones remaining was bryan jonathan xavier and urs truly. initially got more then we were gonna all go yewtai's place ton.then everyone zao zao. kuku sia.nvm. after that we went find yewtai then to his house.shower then mahjong.6 rounds later all about to drop dead so go slp. thats the end for the day.ha

quote of the day: i like dbt21 !!!!!!!!!-veron aka Wrong

new start

2008-06-07T10:24:00.000-07:00

new blog.new link new design.new start.first official post will be on class bbq.shall post tml ha.